Monthly Archives: April 2012

In Close Conversation (live performance)

Inside the walls
That collapse outside myself
The drawbridge is lowered
The dragon is waiting

Lanterns, my friends
Stars in the black sky
They are watching us tonight
The ones who are observing

Decisions, violence
Insult and prejudice
I am guilty and convicted
By an invisible jury

Chorus:

Baby, baby
My mine you
Who I wish you were
And me as philosophy
Convenient archetypes
We cannot be
Though we trust
And swear we see

I have an ocean of words
To tell you
I try
But I’m drowning inside
Authentic is beauty and brutality
So we hide
On opposite sides
In close conversation

Just once
I want to truly know one
Chisel through the past together
Like teamwork in a sun shower

To be free
You have to hurt
There are no exits
Because breathing is not a trap

Talk about worlds and illusions
Gods and texts cloaked in shadow
Quench your cosmic thirst with body shock
No matter, we’re still sharing the same ladder

Chorus


Waves in Waters

Old companions in the memory mind 
Like islands dotting an endless ocean of time 
Traversed by a ship sailing a transparent sea 
Pushed onward by an easy breeze breathing free 
Captain’s compass needle spinning aimless 
Onboard philosopher pursuing the lovely and nameless 
Within every eye was a swirling celestial system 
Within every breath was the secret to infinite wisdom 
We are simply washing upon each other’s shores 
Forevermore 
Like waves in water 


When Bridges must be Crossed

This bridge was shrouded by fog 
And ancient electric sparks 
Floating overhead like fireflies 

This bridge was swaying violently 
Entrapped within a jetting breeze 
Wood stepping panels rumbling 
Hand gripping ropes tearing 

This bridge hung over a smoky silver abyss 
Which hid a crystal clear blue lagoon 
Where sea scented mermaids circled empty treasure chests 
Dressed in the abandoned sails of sunken ships 
Floating amid the drowning shadows 
Of sword wielding buccaneers 
Still consulting useless maps for a direction home 

This bridge lay beneath a growling grey sky 
Overcast clouds permanently lightening scarred 
Empty air paths traversed by transcendent tourists 
Telling legendary tales of sun splashed horizons 
Existing just beyond the most incredulous comprehension 
Of an open and receptive imagination 
These were winged adventurers floating in packs 
Passionate thinkers attempting to defy outer walls 
While neglecting an inner-strife 
Unfurling creative diversions 
Interrupted by occasional pockets of hard rain 

This bridge lay in front of a human 
A man slight in stature 
Posture lowered by slumping shoulders 
Face buried into the buttoned collar of 
A black raincoat being pelted unmercifully 
By chunk blocks of hail due to a storm 
Beginning once the gravity-defying poets passed through 
And oxygen independent mermaids slunk into their seashells 
For their daily hours of peaceful sleep 

No, this human could not fly 
Could not breathe underwater 
Did not possess a special power 
Or particularly impressive intellectual prowess 
His natural beauty could be beaten merciless 
By the wild conditions of his temporary existence 

The man knew of eternity 
But was not sure if he believed 
The man knew of inevitability 
But was unconcerned with its personal application 
He simply had a bridge to cross 
A path to tread 
A burden to haul 

Here was a postman 
Two folded cards in his pocket 
One expressing love 
The other forgiveness 
His boss had been understanding but stern 
The notes were urgent 
Their delivery absolutely essential 
So as the man took stock 
Feeling the vicious wind 
The wicked hail 
Watching the rickety structure swinging 
Terror clawed at his guts 
The skeletal finger of doubt tapped his spine 
His heart beating furious 
Where were the poets with advice? 
Long gone distracted by paradise 
Where were the mermaids to provide calming beauty? 
Resting and not to be disturbed by fear 

The man was alone 
In this moment 
His mission painfully plainly 
Clear 


Good Conversation

Denial is exile
Evaporating upon revisiting the half wake
State
Where ideas and dreams
Thoughts and reality
Begin interlocking
Something is knocking
Rapping upon my door
While I continue searching the floor
For something more
Besides dust and skeletal remains
Of dull ancient pains
Opening a bare cupboard
Where the past does reside
And my dangerous romanticism does hide
Analyzing events long vanished
Into the foggy haze of history
Looking backward is a physical act
Resulting in a loss of momentum
I have this reoccurring tendency to become frozen
Wondering what could have been done
To prevent what has already been
And all the while
The art is whispering
True love like perfection
An idea realized elegantly
Justice done to a righteous thought
Without a bone being bruised
Or an item being bought
Like a Van Gogh painting
Starry, starry night
The mind taking delight
At beauty so obvious
That even an atheist and devout religious
Individual could positively agree
That life is worth living and consciousness itself
Is in fact a miracle surpassing all rational understanding and understated
Intellectual discussions
Over beers with peers
While surveying the wasteland separating
Entrenched opinions and misled men
Lobbing grenades without venturing beyond the lines
To see if their designated opponent would like to play a game
Share a smile
Instead of continuing an argument while ignoring
The absolute flawlessness of Moonrise
Or the impeccable optical illusion of a Barry Zito curveball
How if one simply recognizes the fact that they are indeed breathing
And capable of performing a task so well that it is personally enjoyed
And publicly appreciated
That this fact alone proves this world can make sense
And we all might have destiny
That ends in a sunset
And if not then maybe at least
A moment where the complexity is at least recognized
So here I am
Inhabiting strange terrain
I am simply typing but my skin is electric
I am simply typing but my eyes are sparkling
I am simply typing but beautiful blue streams are passing through
A suddenly enlivened peripheral perspective
Which can be altered respective
To the contentment of my heart
And the fulfillment of my job
To thoroughly and originally
Write and connect and inspire which requires
Peace of mind and the relinquishment of negativity
And wallowing
What’s occurred is gone
The present moment never left
Maybe my problems are similar to yours
Maybe you have your own cross to haul
Maybe we are similar
Or only identical in total difference
And yet here I sit
Seeking an explanation
For your presence
In my private little world
Where we have become the dream
And you are welcome
So very welcome
To join me
For a good conversation


Electric Ghosts

My hand flowing over wheat fields 

Racing aboard an early train 

Kissing a wispy April rain 

My eyes analyzing the pockmarked moon 

Flirting with matchstick fire 

Devouring delicate desire 

My feet stomping on misplaced flowers 

Face smiling at dour poets summoning electric ghosts 

Ego pitying plastic dolls selling sinking boats 

My arms caressing a sweet June wind 

Eyes searching glass shards for tangled sunbeams 

Heart floating secondhand visions of saline daydreams


Romeo Soul

Romeo Soul lyrics 

Well back in High School

You smiled while listening to a rapper

Cleverly rhyme his way to fame

Now you hear that same song
And sadly shake your head
What changed?

I know it’s natural to grow apart
But why do you stare at me
Like I’m stained?

Oh Romeo Soul
We’ve got to get you back on a roll
All your senses sunk below
You are a shadow swimming against the flow

We were kids once remember?
And you ran ahead of the group
So adventurous

Now you nurse a broken heart
And cater to a misled mind
Buddy, you are delirious

Setting up fences before your door
Wondering if art is expendable
When did your ego get so serious?

Oh Romeo Soul
We’ve got to get you back on a roll
All your senses sunk below
You are a shadow swimming against the flow

You loved that girl
And she broke your heart
It was years ago

You wrote her letters
She never replied half the time
It’s so painful, I know

You are quitting without admitting
That life can still be beautiful
Without her in the picture show

Oh Romeo Soul
We’ve got to get you back on a roll
All your senses sunk below
You are a shadow swimming against the flow

(improv)


Reflections: The Lyrics of Conor Oberst

Nothing can inspire like a good lyric.  For many listeners and critics alike, the work of Bob Dylan demolished a wall that separated lyrics from legitimate poetry. Read the “11 Outlined Epitaphs,” liner notes for Dylan’s “The Times They are A-Changing” album, and never doubt the man’s talent ever again.

 

 When lyrics contain inherent poetical value, while also bouncing off the accompanying musical sounds in sweet synchronization, the result can be magical. (Think of Stipe sighing, “your light white is bright, light, white light” against the lovely instrumentation in R.E.M.’s ‘Low’) The colliding art forms can overwhelm. Great lyricists are wizards, for sure, maybe akin to the hipster wizards from Super Mario World, posted up in Bowser’s castles.

 

Contemporarily speaking, Conor Oberst is one of music’s finest songwriters. Oberst utilizes his interior world as a vehicle to deliver art. He has been occasionally criticized for obsessively exploring his own psyche, in lieu of other subjects.

 

 Oberst can compare to Dylan, where pure lyricism is concerned. May be blasphemous to some, but the debate can be broached, at least until some baby boomer threateningly brandishes a copy of “Chronicles: Volume One.” (And bring on Volume Two! Can’t Wait…)

 

When it comes to vocalization, there may not be much of an argument. Dylan has something special in his voice and delivery, honed through his folk origins and Jimmy Dean mean styling, that is difficult for any songwriter to match. The venom seeping through his darker songs only makes the sensitive tunes more special. We’re in a different era now; our artists usually do not imagine themselves in a triumphant hero’s guise. That’s too bad, in many ways. When there’s a hero involved, the sad songs are more poignant. (In this sense, “Time out of Mind” represented a complete departure from this approach for Dylan, but alas, that’s another article…)

 

 Bright Eyes, Oberst’s primary songwriting vehicle, appeals especially to amateur philosophers often uncomfortable in their own skin. Isaac Brock writes songs expressing existential frustration, often accepted with detachment violently expressed yet somehow dignified. (“Parting of the Sensory” one such masterpiece) Great songs to keep the fire burning… Oberst is a different type of writer, capable of providing comfort even while exploring the darkest subject matter. He’s not the second coming of Dylan, though that lazy designation has been dropped at his door repeatedly through the years, especially in the earlier phase. And it is difficult to compare him with another current artist, like the equally unique Brock.

 

The following is a listing of four personal favorite Oberst lyrics. In no particular order, because it’s goofy to debate how a list such as this is configured. He’s a true artist in today’s pop realm. We need more of that.

 

 

  1. I Believe in Symmetry – off Digital Ash in a Digital Urn
  2. Easy, Lucky, Free – off Digital Ash in a Digital Urn

 

Lyrics in Question: I Believe in Symmetry

“The argument for consciousness

The instinct of the blind insect

Who never thinks not to accept its fate, that’s faith

There’s happiness in death

You give to the next one

You give to the next on down the line

You give to the next one

You get to the next on down the line.”

 

Lyrics in Question: Easy, Lucky, Free

“Sometimes I worry that I’ve lost the plot

My twitching muscles tease my flippant thoughts

I never really dreamed of heaven much

Until we put him in the ground

But it’s all I’m doing now

Listening for patterns in the sound

Of an endless static sea

But once the satellite’s deceased

It blows like garbage through the streets

Of the night sky to infinity.”

 

There is something remarkably original occurring on Digital Ash in a Digital Urn, a theme that both engages and challenges the listener. Misery can be analyzed, the imposing power of death recognized, this has been done before, and extremely well, by thousands of poets, painters, and thinkers through the centuries. Oberst though, makes a wholly unique statement with this particular album, especially these two songs. He seems to be addressing the dreaded ‘what if’ question swimming in all of our subconscious dwellings, the hopeless query about whether our lives mean anything in the face of expiration. Is our consciousness ultimately a curse, allowing us to see all the way down a road that ends, certainly in a physical sense?

 

It’s a frightening consideration. The genius of these lyrics resides in an empowering sense of acceptance, paired with a simultaneous recognition of the potential validity in strictly materialistic viewpoints of reality.

 

If, in fact, our worst of fears about death are true, then so what? “I believe in Symmetry,” posits that our efforts can better the next generation, be it familial or otherwise. We are all ultimately working for the cause of advancement, and if the progress includes our deaths, we should not flee from our responsibility as a member of the grand orchestra of nature.  The song’s arrangement seems to push that point forward.

 

“Easy, Lucky, Free” encourages similarly, acknowledging that it is our creativity and imaginations capable of conjuring such concepts as ‘heaven.’ Whether or not one believes in heaven, we can all agree it takes significant imagination to think about the subject. When eternal belief systems are challenged, the lyrics direct the listener toward channeling that creativity positively, like searching ‘for patterns in the sounds, of an endless, static sea.’ It takes real strength to create in the face of perceived futility. But futility only has the power we grant it.  Digital Ash in a Digital Urn challenges the modern free thinking man and woman, to refuse tabbing misery as the conclusion of their life’s thesis. Art can still be great, even if simply wallowing. These lyrics do more than that. Songs like “Down a Rabbit Hole” and “Hit the Switch” echo this theme.

 

Oberst took a real step forward with these lyrics, staring the outcome millions fear straight in the face, and presenting a positive message.

 

3. Haile Selassie – off The People’s Key

Lyrics in Question:

“I had the wildest dream last night

I was swimming with you in that Cenote the Heavens made with black fire

Just woke up too soon.”

 

The People’s Key was not greeted with unanimous praise by Bright Eyes fans or the press. Well, that’s usually the case when a band decides to continue pursuing their creative instinct, instead of simply staying with what has been deemed acceptable output by external forces.

 

When risks are taken, failures accompany success in equal measure. It is my opinion that the Key is a tremendous album. The album deals primarily with spirituality, but instead of pondering the question of what is “real,” the songs dive into primal human instinct, and it’s connection with faith. The album asks many fascinating questions: perhaps most importantly, whether spirituality is wired into our hard-drives, inevitably a factor in our lifetimes, even if totally ignored (A Machine Spiritual sums up that thread quite effectively, if there is a ‘spirit’ in the idea of basic advancement, be it evolutionary or technologically)

 

The religion of love and understanding, without a name or official congregation, is the driving force of the album. If spirituality is an inevitable fact for many of us, how can it be a positive factor in our lives? How can we celebrate our different beliefs, instead of employing them as a conduit for division? And similarly to the themes found on Ash, where does the modern, pragmatic cat fit into all of this? (The song Beginner’s Mind, where Oberst appears to be encouraging a friend finding strength in Buddhist beliefs to stay on his path, is especially enjoyable)

 

 The lyrics above, from the song “Haile Selassie” elicit wonder. It is the emotion of wonder that many spiritually minded people claim connects us to a higher force. The existence of dreams, images and fragments visiting upon us while asleep, is a fascinating fact of life. Within a song filled with wondrous imagery, Oberst drops the listener into a cenote, naturally forming water filled pits found in Central America. In the cenote he swims with someone beautiful. The longing in his voice gives that fact away.

 

 The listener has been exported from a dense song about the interconnectedness of humanity into a wild dream, swimming in a cenote that the heavens made with black fire. These words also connect quite skillfully with a prior verse about the ‘omega day in a plain sight… being… ‘Too good to be true.’ Our dreams often are too good to be true, and Oberst wakes up from the cenote fantasy ‘too soon.’ (Superb rhyming of phrase fit into a theme)

 

The listener is left grappling with reality, searching for the wonder that ignites our DNA… hence the primary theme of the album, and, arguably, human life.  Primal joy makes us feel like we can live forever. Sometimes our dreams are a tease, but the salvation we pine for just might be hiding in plain sight.

 

  1. 4.    Lime Tree – off Cassadaga

Lyrics in Question:

“The window closes, shock rolls over in a tidal wave

And all the color drains out of the frame

So pleased with a daydream that now living is no good

I took off my shoes and walked into the woods

I felt lost and found with every step I took.”

 

Cassadaga is an interesting album. At times the songs sound like they emerged out of the woods of upstate New York, twisting through the thicket and into the listener’s ears. Yet there is also an urban vibe on tracks such as ‘Make a Plan to Love Me,’ ‘Cleanse Song’ and ‘Coat Check Dream Song.’ This may be best described as the Bright Eyes album most closely associated with distinct locations, as Oberst, the narrator, is alternately ‘heading to New England,’ watching an ‘empire ending’ on a city rooftop, or chilling out for awhile in Los Angeles.

 

 ‘Lime Tree,’ suitably, resembles the rest of the album, mysterious.  It features a strumming guitar, backed by orchestral strings.

 

Frustration boils under Oberst’s drowsy delivery. He can see flaws, externally and internally, yet at the time of this song’s recording, appears unable to call upon the power to make peace with the problems, let alone consciously change them.  ‘I felt nauseous with the truth,’ Oberst sings in disgust. There is a distinct complaint about human reality being made here, a grievance made by artists for centuries.

 

 The chilling imagery of ‘I took off my shoes and walked into the woods’ calls upon a primitive type of desolation, even shame. We can so clearly know ourselves; and yet, at the same time, be unable to accept the paralyzing truth about negativity. It is a real force capable of causing us to leave our potential unfulfilled, and authentic relationships bypassed. (“Standing on a doorstep full of nervous butterflies, waiting to be asked to come inside… just come inside.”)

 

 What remains is a journey of intensity and incredible discomfort, as brilliantly expressed with the removal of shoes. A path where we are ‘lost and found… with every step.’ It’s a sad song, beautiful, but sad. 

 

As the last track of the album, it is perhaps not only a summation of Cassadaga; but the difficulties presented by the human psyche. We own the consciousness to perceive inequity, unfairness, broken dreams and shattered expectations. When we become beaten down emotionally, infected with the toxicity of apathy and low energy, “all the color” can indeed, “(drain) out of the frame.” Hopefully the listener can find themselves in the woods, and overcome the times feeling lost.


Confession (song version)

 

……

Lyrics:

 

His name is Frankie Slade

He looks out his apartment window

Pondering everything that he

Does not know

 

Yeah, Frankie stares idly

At the traffic choked street

And swallows a second glass of defeat

 

Frankie walks down the stairs

And outside the door

Frankie was always pining

For something more

 

At seven the cars begin

To vanish heading toward invisible homes

Where people live alone

 

Frankie approaches the church

Passing through the thick nighttime ether

Hadn’t felt the flame of flesh in a long time,

Between love and security he knew neither

 

The priest listens quietly

While Frankie bares his soul

The emotions flow and the moment is in control

 

Chorus:

 

Faraway

They always say

Keep your feelings at bay

 

Stay away

They always say

But that’s where the answers lay

 

Frankie only feels free while confessing his sins

Frankie only feels free while confessing his sins

 

His name is Frankie Slade

He stares down upon his work desk

Eyes wide though he never gets

Enough rest

Unless he has three glasses of wine

Before bed, but this was OK

That’s what they said

 

Frankie leaves the job

Again failing to ask for her number

His lips quiver with anticipation

Body anticipates the slumber

 

Nightmares are warning signs

He was taught, daydreams are discarded

The solutions are bought

 

Frankie passes by the church

Sweatshirt hood hanging over his eyes

Someone anonymous must have the answer

And time to sort through the lies

 

He rested upon his knee

To say a prayer

And felt the wind sweeping through his jet black hair

 

Chorus:

 

Faraway

They always say

Keep your feelings at bay

 

Stay away

They always say

But that’s where the answers lay

 

Frankie only feels free while confessing his sins

Frankie only feels free while confessing his sins


Confession

His name is Frankie Slade

He looks out his apartment window

Pondering everything that he

Does not know

 

Yeah, Frankie stares idly

At the traffic choked street

And swallows a second glass of defeat

 

Frankie walks down the stairs

And outside the door

Frankie was always pining

For something more

 

At seven the cars begin

To vanish heading toward invisible homes

Where people live alone

 

Frankie approaches the church

Passing through the thick nighttime ether

Hadn’t felt the flame of flesh in a long time,

Of love and security he knew neither

 

The priest listens quietly

While Frankie bares his soul

The emotions flow and the moment is in control

 

Chorus:

Faraway

They always say

Where the answers lay

Stay away

They always say

Keep your feelings at bay

Frankie only feels free while confessing his sins

Frankie only feels free while confessing his sins

 

His name is Frankie Slade

He stares down upon his work desk

Eyes wide though he never gets

Enough rest

 

Unless he has three glasses of wine

Before bed, but this was OK

That’s what they said

 

Frankie leaves the job

Again failing to ask for her number

His lips quiver with anticipation

Body anticipates the slumber

 

Nightmares are warning signs

He was taught, daydreams are discarded

The solutions are bought

 

Frankie passes by the church

Sweatshirt hood hanging over his eyes

Someone anonymous must have the answer

And time to sort through the lies

 

He rested upon his knee

To say a prayer

And felt the wind sweeping through his jet black hair

 

Chorus:

Faraway

They always say

Where the answers lay

Stay away

They always say

Keep your feelings at bay

 

Frankie only feels free while confessing his sins

Frankie only feels free while confessing his sins


Enclosure

There was a man walking down the street–He was wearing a long black overcoat –Feet underneath rushing along cracked cement –Holding three boxes stacked one over another –The tops nearly falling off –He stumbled attempting to maintain balance –Mumbling about manuscripts and broken promises–The day was fading and the clouds were a fine shade of gray –He was approaching a dead-end –That doubled as a view to the nearby harbor –No one could deny the sea was black–Rejecting reflection–He reached his destination –The waves were violent –Cascading and exploding –Suggesting a riptide –Paradox and death without answers –He asked a question, quietly, to himself–He wasn’t even meant to hear–It was then he dropped the boxes –Onto the cold damp ground –Pages spilled forth –Pouring ceaseless –The work of a lifetime –Flying into the wind –The man raised his arms –Amidst the swirling stationary–Disappeared entirely absorbed–Finally finding truth–In the final chapter–Of a book that he could never get published.

There was a woman running through a forest –Past rotting tree stumps and protruding drain lines –She was wearing black dress — Flinging a wedding ring without slowing her pace–Her soul could escape upward and explode –A celestial firework show –A new constellation –The flowers gazed –When they whispered she often listened –It was too late for thoughts–Reconciliation a foregone station–Beyond betrayed surface waves–Belonging to another’s mind sea–She came to the edge of a cliff–Legs still churning before stopping–Her heart slowed by the sight of a sunset–The streams flowing down her face –Evaporated in pure orange–She eyed the sky–Admiring fractured cloud strands leading to a rainbow–It was then she begin to spin–Beyond the speed of light—A transforming window–An ethereal entryway—Through which joy may be delivered–And peace discovered–As nature leapt forth from her trail–There was a sun shower–That left the town delirious.

There was a teenager–Who breathed hellfire fumes–From his perch on the tenement fire escape–He saw a world disintegrating–While nobody seemed to care–About the contagious apocalypse–Armageddon and daily judgment night–When street heroes would be slain–By those who both worshipped and loathed them–Amid this chaos and confusion–Order was a crime–Intelligence a weakness–For his whole life–All the teenager wanted were friends–He had a father who hit him–And a mother who was dead–Dad was hardly around–Unfolding his own transient legend–The cement hearted brigade–Dying in violent red flashes –Same as they lived–The teenager had seen the shadow of death and felt a light inside resisting–His proud heart was a shield–His fragile ego a trap–He was willing to let go–If only he had a home–Of his own–Away from the sad comforting laughter–Of familiar doomed friends–They were playing a game–On a hot summer afternoon–When tempers flared –Strangers turned a rival faction– Kids mutating into temporary sentries–Drawing cannons–Acceptable insanity–The teenager in the middle–As he had always anticipated–How many days had he thought of it–Practically tasted it–Alone in his tiny room–Gazing through a cracked window–Squinting against broken shards of sun –At a crumbling empire beyond repair–But before the revolver could fire–It was then he was lifted off the ground–Some sort of never ending underlying love–Carried him away–On a gold carpet he saw in vague dreams–That felt like they lasted years–It let off light unbearably bright–Soon enveloped and gone–With its passenger–Free from the enclosure.

 


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